Monday, April 04, 2011
Life is a Gift to Cherish
As you know if you have been reading my blog, I've been sad for a while. All I can say is that something very sad is happening to one of my adult children. And if you're a mom, you know the mother pain that we feel when our children are hurting. It STABS us in the heart!
I have been struggling to figure out how to handle my grief. It's not easy. Intellectually I know that the problem is totally out of my hands. Emotionally, it is hard to step back and leave it alone.
I am putting my trust in God. Not that I am hoping God will help resolve the problem in any one particular direction. But I hope that the people to whom the sadness is occurring can feel loved and nurtured and comforted through the tough decisions ahead. That is my prayer.
I also realize that moping around being sad all the time is not good for anyone, including me. Gradually I am toughening up. I trust my adult child to make wise decisions. Me crying about it does nothing but make my eyes red and sore. I am trying to live in the moment and love life.
I have definitely found that the support of friends is crucial. My friends have come through for me at key times when I needed them. Thank you, my dear friends!! I am thankful that my adult child also has good friends to lean on.
As for my Life Stress #2: this week my mother is undergoing spinal surgery. She is 90 years old. The doctor seems confident that it is fairly straight forward and low risk. The only risk is my mother's age. But... she's pretty tough and resilient, so I'm praying that she will be fine. I will take care of her for a couple of days, and I hope I'll be an acceptable nurse! Send your good vibes our way, please.
Keeping my chin up and my hopes up. Life is fabulous, life is tough. Life is a gift to cherish. Friends and God and love will see us through. That's what I believe.