I've had some interesting thoughts swirling around in my head this week. I had something happen to me... won't go into details. But I was hit upside the head with an issue that I believe strongly about - intellectually, morally, etc. I found out it is a lot harder to deal with when the issue is in front of one's own face and one must follow through with the words one has been spouting on the subject.
Hmm. Could it be I'm not as open minded and accepting as I thought I was? Probably. Or could I just be struggling with some of the same responses that most people would have when an Idea suddenly becomes Reality In Front of Your Own Nose?! Probably that, too. I'm going to work intentionally on living my life in a way that demonstrates my beliefs. It's good to have real-life reminders!
Thank you, wonderful Book Club, for letting me spew my thoughts, incoherent and otherwise, and accepting me and helping me sort through them all. Learning is sometimes hard but nearly always fun!
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Interesting. I wonder the same thing often. I try to ask myself, Do I meet the standards I set for other people? Who am I to judge? Because even though I try hard not to, I catch myself. Not that this has anything to do with what you might be going through but it makes me think of things from my perspective...Thanks! :)
It sounds to me you are like the rest of us. When I was teaching I thought everybody doesn't need to go to college but my three kids sure do. When we are faced with a situation we see sides of the issue that we didn't see before. After dealing with my mother and her care I see a lot of aspects of eldercare that I didn't see before. Hang in there.
I think you have to take time to peel back the layers. I know there is probably more than one layer of issue here... Also..need to think how vulnerable you want to make yourself... You are doing good!
A lot of issues have details that don't make themselves fully felt until they affect you personally. The fact that you are aware of the conflict between your ideals and your feelings means you're still the good person you're trying to be, and most likely not a hypocrite.
It's also not hypocritical to change your opinion if necessary.
Whatever it is, I'm sending you good wishes for dealing with it! :)
Interesting topic. When I worked as a psychotherapist I often said I had a personal opinion and a professional opinion. And, after I spent some time working through this issue, I never had a problem expressing both of them and explaining why there was a difference. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you deal with this conflict.
Hi Carol, I am a giraffe lover also. I just found your blog, it is great. I'm at patchesquiltworks.blogspot.com (Patches is a giraffe that I have used as a logo for years)
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