Quilts on a barn - what a happy sight!
I've been feeling sad for quite a while... stuff going on in the family, death of a former student, stuff that I was letting weigh me down. Life was feeling pretty tough.
Now I'm happy! What changed? Nothing except my own attitude. I got tired of myself. Who wants to hang around with Ms. Dopey?? I certainly don't. Also I got help from a couple of other sources. A friend at church told me how she has survived some catastrophic events in her life: "I didn't want to bring everyone else down with me." I thought about that, and it made a lot of sense.
Then I was randomly flipping through an old notebook where I had scribbled down some notes regarding a book I wanted to read: "how to preserve your own well-being in relationships, especially relationships with yourself" and: "living in the moment; let go of outcome" and: "basing your happiness on things outside of your control = insanity."
I realized I could decide to be happy. And so I did. And I am! Once I made that decision and actually felt happier, I began to see more happiness around me. Amazing how that works, isn't it?!
Regarding my new job: it's kind of a weird job, but I'm sort of liking it, as much as one can like something that is hard to like. I know - that is confusing. The learning curve at my job was only briefly difficult. After that it become extremely tedious and monotonous, which I find exhausting. But... project #1 ended today, and I have 3 glorious days off! (Happiness!) And I was assigned to project #2 which starts on Monday and means: more income (happiness)! I am crossing my fingers that my son will be hired at the same place. That would be so much fun.
See? Life is grand.