I realize with some surprise that I have already been at my new job for nine months. This was a job I never thought I'd be able to do. You have to be good to do this job. I just didn't think I measured up. To my surprise and pleasure, I found out that I can do it, and I'm even good at it! (The trainer told me that I'm a "kick-ass interpreter.")
I don't know why I have struggled for so long with my inferiority complex. You would think after all these years I would have realized that I'm OK, and I don't need to constantly compare myself to others (usually building them up and me down). It's a life-long trait that I need to constantly work on. Just having an intellectual understanding of this isn't enough. It's deep-seated enough so that it is just part of my persona. It affects every part of me, no matter how hard I try to cure myself of it.
After nine months of learning and practicing and doing my job, I finally am at a point where I'm pretty much comfortable with it and confident that I can do it. I'll still have my bad days, like everyone does, but I finally feel like I belong there.
I work in short shifts, 8-10 hours per week. Nothing too taxing, but just enough to keep my toes in the field, keep my skills up, and have a little pocket change. I'm in a great stage of life and loving it!
3 comments:
Well I don't think you are alone in the self doubt department, and like you say, it often defies rational judgement.
I think you are kick ass in a lot of things.
Glad to hear that you are doing very well at work and enjoying your semi-retirement.
Wow! Nine months already? Congrats! So glad you heard a positve comment about yourself. All the best as you continue.
Same here - I don't know why we do that to ourselves. Perhaps we know all the inards of our weaknesses that are not apparent when we are doing out jobs. No one is good at everything - congrats on performing a job that suits you and is needed and also appreciated by your boss. 8-)))
On another subject - where on earth did you see that giraffe lieing that way? I thought they never/hardly ever lie down. ???
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