Tuesday, June 19, 2012
My Job: Wow, I'm Doing It!
I realize with some surprise that I have already been at my new job for nine months. This was a job I never thought I'd be able to do. You have to be good to do this job. I just didn't think I measured up. To my surprise and pleasure, I found out that I can do it, and I'm even good at it! (The trainer told me that I'm a "kick-ass interpreter.")
I don't know why I have struggled for so long with my inferiority complex. You would think after all these years I would have realized that I'm OK, and I don't need to constantly compare myself to others (usually building them up and me down). It's a life-long trait that I need to constantly work on. Just having an intellectual understanding of this isn't enough. It's deep-seated enough so that it is just part of my persona. It affects every part of me, no matter how hard I try to cure myself of it.
After nine months of learning and practicing and doing my job, I finally am at a point where I'm pretty much comfortable with it and confident that I can do it. I'll still have my bad days, like everyone does, but I finally feel like I belong there.
I work in short shifts, 8-10 hours per week. Nothing too taxing, but just enough to keep my toes in the field, keep my skills up, and have a little pocket change. I'm in a great stage of life and loving it!